Just rambling

I was laying here thinking about my dogs in my life! Oh how I loved them all So! There's been a few since I bred German Shepherds for almost 10 years.Each was so special and unique. But I always wanted to name one Kevlar to keep for myself to take Deuce's place when he's gone. Deuce has been everything you could ever want in a dog.A perfect dog til recently.From rescueing that 3 year old girl to saving my life a few times, and helping me when I get hurt. He wakes me up when I'm sleeping hard and in pain or night mare. He always reassures me like a person would or tries to use his body heat to make the pain go away. I swear he's more human than dog! Any way back to the Kevlar thing.I almost had Kevlar twice. Neither was here to work in Deuce's stead tho. The first was when I bred Thor and Ice Spirit. Ice Spirit died from complications of that Litter so it started bad. Only 5 of 10 pups survived birthing. Ice passed a week later Never being able to mother her pups. Her Mom Duchess took over and nursed them but care was up to me! Duchess had her own pups to care for.Her pregnancy was fine, but she went in labor early during an Ice storm outside in the Whelping kennel I made for her litter. She liked it outside all the time. She was born on New year's eve 3 years 2002 (Thor was born Christmas Eve 2002). The first pup was born in her shelter and she panicked and sat on him. I heard her and went and brought them in next to the fire.She had the next 4 and everything went wrong. The first one was a male, she'd hurt him when she sat on him. He was blind in one eye, and had severe pneumonia. I nursed him and kept him warm and gave him antibiotics and he thrived! I decided to keep him even though I already had the other 3 adult Shepherds, Deuce and Junkie. I named him Kevlar. when Bruce and I separated I was on my own. My friend always wanted Kevlar. He was beautiful- Solid white with the long shepherd coat. I gave him to him and he bought the other 2 pups that were left. He had lots of land. He had them fixed, etc. He promised to never chain them and had big lots for them when he left. They got loose all the time. He chained them 1 time and came home and they'd all 3 hung themselves. It broke my heart. I lost all my babies 1 by 1 shortly after the separation, til only Deuce and Junkie were left. I got a black pit mastiff mix at 5 weeks old. He was awesome- soooo smart. at 12 weeks he was obedience trained. I had Ideas for him. He was Kevlar! One day at 13 weeks he ate a plastic cat toy and I didn't know. Next day he was in bad shape. I took him to the vet but there was no saving him. I've lost a lot of my fur kids and they all hurt bad. I'm always worried about Leo. he's always into something whether indoors or out. He eats things he shouldn't. Dillon Named him after the white lighter on the show Charmed. He said this is the one that'll look after me. It makes me feel better too that I didn't name him Kevlar (I thought about it)or he probably wouldn't have survived all the crazy things he's done. Any way- Just rambling.