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Wow, do I ever take forever to post a blog! I have had a lot happen since I wrote the last blog entry. I stopped writing that stupid book after a friend laughed at my writing. Oh well. I am back in school at Blue Ridge Community College getting my degree in Environmental Science. I have a 3.14 grade point average after my first semester, and am doing ok this semester. I love school.
Lee Jr is now living with me since October 31,2010, and that has been a challenge in and of itself. I just found out he may have asberger's syndrome. He is violent and aggressive and hard to manage. He's 18 now and uses that against me and himself. He fights with me all the time.
I never see Tara and Dillon since Jr moved in, and they are out of control too. It's all so crazy.
Deuce died in August and I miss him so much every day. I have Leo still and he is a mess. We currently have a little rescued Manchester terrier Chihuahua mix we are fostering named Betty. She has a lot of health issues and costs a lot of money and time. i still have Junkie, only less 20 teeth,lol.
I'm still in the same broken down house, but it is slowly getting repairs. Today, the laundry room floor fell through in one spot and we found out the floor joist is broken and the wall for the laundry room and kitchen has separated and is falling, so it is getting fixed now. It's all so crazy!
My Uncle Steve is dying and it has my mind all jumbled up. He is the greatest man i have ever known, and it is unfair he has to go the way he is- lung cancer. I went to see him and he told me how much he loved me and told me not to cry. he wants me to be happy for him, but it's hard. Mom (Aunt Elenor) has Alzheimer's and is not in good shape herself, but for a few brief moments she knew me and talked to me. She looked in my eyes and got happy and asked me to stay. I cried the whole way back from Atlanta to Hendersonville. They say Unc is in his last few hours now, but he keeps trying to be strong. That's him alright. I wish I was there, but I would just be in the way. I feel stupid sitting by the phone and computer waiting for a message. I want to be there now! I don't mean to sound bad, but I can't miss school, and I have so much going on that I just have no choice but to sit by and wait. UGH. I feel like it makes me seem selfish. I don't know if I could handle it though. I do so love him. Boy, what I wouldn't give to hear the angels sing when he joins the ranks in heaven. One special angel will be joining heaven this week. If I was ever asked to name the best Christians I have ever known, It would be Mom and Uncle Steve. They just always did what was right by man and God. They have always been my heroes. I don't know what to feel, or do, or think about it all right now. I just know it's hard to believe.
I remember Uncle Steve as the "man of steel". He was always telling the boys to punch him in the stomach, and drinking vinegar with meals. The other day, I was not in the least bit shocked, but I did chuckle when He would only eat home cooking, and had to have his vinegar with his lunch. That's My Unc!! I have so many fond memories of those two. I thank God for letting them play the parts in my life that they did.
I wish I could have had a more social and pleasant trip with my cousins though. It was good to see them. I do so miss them all. It made me yearn for home. I must move home again one day. For now i will stay in my mountains.
I broke my ankle in November and am just getting the walking cast off in small increments this week. It's really a boot, but they call it a cast. It's healing well.
well, I guess that's good enough for a quick, catch up since the last entry. There is more I could add and say, but I'd be here for hours. There has been 17 deaths in my friends and family in the last year, and other than that I don't think there is much more significant to say.
For now- LIVE LAUGH LOVE
B