Where's My SONNY HONEY

Good Morning, Lord. Good Morning friends and family. Well I didn't sleep well last night. I've been awake since 5:00 AM. I don't want to admit it, But my Sonny Honey cat has been missing 6 days now. I hand delivered him. He's semi-ferrel. Only myself , the kids and a few select people can touch him. He's never late for meals but doesn't like to come inside but for a brief few minutes. I decided since I can't sleep I'll go walking and look for him.Everyone on my street is elderly and hard of hearing, or younger with school kids, so I watched as lights slowly came on around me and started walking and calling him. He always comes when I call, but no Sonny. Iloved that cat as much as I can love a cat since I'm really a dog person. I thought Sonny'd be around for a long time. Charlie is the one I expected to go first since he's a stray. But Charlie is an overweight lazy cat who only leaves the yard to lay in the street (aaaarrrrgggghhh!!!) just past the driveway. Mystic roams but stays close she's young yet tho. All my pets are spayed or neutered except Junkie the Poodle and Leo the puppy. They won't neuter Junkie because he's 10 and has what's called White Dog Shaker Syndrome. Its like epilepsy, but only affects white dogs. Mainly White minature, toy and teacup, poodles. Leo's getting neutered next month along with his last puppy shot and rabies vaccine. It's Crazy we spend our lives loving someone or some pet hard only to lose them. I've lost alot of pets because I bred German Shepherds foe years, They either got old or some complications took them away. You never get used to losing the ones you love. All I have in my life are my kids and pets and few friends. I'd love to become closer to my family, it'll take them all time to get used to letting me back in, but I'm patient. Sonny missing has me upset. I'm not crying like I will when one of the dogs passes, but my heart aches because I know I could've done better. Cats really shouldn't be outside. They get hurt too easily, don't learn boundaries like dogs do, and will chase almost anything that moves which gets them into trouble. Now I'm gonna worry about Charlie and Mystic more, I'll probably go overboard when I don't see them close to the porch. Enough of that now. I'm sleepy think I'll go nap after I take the dogs out. LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE TTYL B