Single again

Well, I'm single now. My divorce was finalized yesterday. It was totally weird. I haven't seen Bruce in 3 years yet When I walked in the courthouse there he was at the top of the stairs wearing the same red polo I was! It was like a punch in the face. I had all these emotions come flooding back- but first and formost I was hurt.I could tell he's clean and off the meth and all I could Think was why couldn't he quit for me? I miss him alot. It really messes with me being able to date again I always compare them to Bruce's good qualities and its tough.When it was good it was like a fairy tale. When things were bad it was a horror flick. I've grown and changed alot over these last 3 1/2 years. Its hard living alone on disability. I'm going to start a job soon with vocational rehab soon. Maybe it'll work out. I pray every day for strenghth. Some days are harder than others but I'll be all right. I gotta go for now my hot fudge sundae is melting. ttyl B