I really want to move

I'm restless. I feel as tho the only thing keeping me here are the kids. I feel useless because I really have nothing to do. I watch tv, play with the dogs, play on the computer, play with the kids, eat and sleep. I'm bored. I used to volunteer at All Creatures Great and Small but they couldn't get it right and closed down 2 years ago. I'm ready for a change. I wish I could find exactly what I want and need and plan it and go. I'd like to know that there's a place waiting for me. I'd really like to find another rescue facility and move there and help out. I only have my eyes on 1 tho but I don't think anything will come up of it. Well I'll just pray and let the Lord lead me.

wow Facebook

It was a reunion of stockwood estates here tonight. I talked to so many people Lesley Mantooth, Susan Reeves.... and I talked to some of my younger cousins. I forgot they grew up. Its so awesome. Thank you to the creator of facebook. Live Laugh Love. TTYL B

Facebook

I'm addicted to facebook. I have a farm, cafe, and an aquarium. lol. It's something to do other than clean, tv, dogs,cats.... do I really have time for it?? I'll see. gotta go serve my french onion soup in my cafe. LOL LIVE LAUGH LOVE ttyl B

fighting over the computer-lol

Lee jr came for the weekend, Tara and Dillon went to their friends' instead. Jr and I fought over the computer all weekend. It was funny. Sometimes I just let him have it and would go to Vicki's and tend my facebook games- you see now I'm addicted to Facebook.I have a cafe, farm and 2 fish tanks. Its fun but time consuming. Vicki and her husband Gil are my closest friends. They have been there for me thru everything. Vicki stayed by me thru the Sonny ordeal. He's buried on the hill like I said I was gonna do. I didn't want any help with that part. It was hard physically and emotionally. I didn't think I could do it, my back arms and legs screamed, but he's at rest now.
I love facebook as I said before. It's amazing I found so many people I've wondered about over the years. It's awesome. Well, I'd better go eat before I dry up and blow away ( that might take years lol as big as I am now). My coffe is done pets are fed- my turn. LIVE LAUGH LOVE TTYL B

OK, Is the day over yet? Sonny was humanely euthanized about an hour ago. I'll miss him. LIVE LAUGH LOVE B

POOR SONNY HONEY

I'm afraid sonny is hurt much worse than I thought. His ribs are broken maybe his shoulder and hip. He has an infection in his bite wounds and my penicillin is expired. I've made all the right calls (thank God my phone was turned on yesterday) and am waiting for someone to call. I don't have a car or he'd be waiting at the vet's door now. I know his injuries are so severe that I won't have the money to have him helped. I have several options. Surrender him, maybe he'll be fixed and adopted. Get help from local agencies, keep him and nurse him back (pray for this one), or humane euthanasia and bury him on the hill with Kevlar and Debbbie's pets. Debbie rented this house for 10 years and passed away. I knew her a little. Her 3 pets were killed in the road and she started a pet cemetery in a nice spot in the back yard on the hill overlooking the house. My puppy Kevlar is there. He ate a hard plastic cat toy and died on the operating table.Deuce and Junkie have special places reserved for them. Pets are so much more than just animals they're our fur kids. Always treat them right and make the right decisions that are best for them not you. How do people abuse or neglect animals or children or whatever? Lord, make me strong enough to do what's right for Sonny. Amen B

Sonny Came Home

THANK YOU, LORD!!!!!!! I was going to lay down to nap, and a loud banging at my door startled me. I looked outside and my neighbor was standing there frantic. I thought oh no Mystic, Charlie!!! But When I opened the door she said Sonny is outside at the end of your driveway next to dog lot I can't pick him up he's hurt badly but I can't get near him. I ran outside ( in my socks in the rain) to the dog lot and there he was. I went straight to him and checked him out. He's been attacked by a dog. He's hurt pretty badly but no bones broken. I'll start him on injectable pcn and call vet. He has 2 puncture wounds that are closing, lots of swelling but his eyes are goood no dehydration and hungry. I think the last 6 days might've been the worst of what he had to face, but better vet than sorry. I'm so happy he's alive. Well he's done eating I'm going to go look him over better now. THANK YOU, LORD!! Live,Laugh, Love TTYL B

Sonny

I'll miss you Sonny Honey. I love you fat cat.

Where's My SONNY HONEY

Good Morning, Lord. Good Morning friends and family. Well I didn't sleep well last night. I've been awake since 5:00 AM. I don't want to admit it, But my Sonny Honey cat has been missing 6 days now. I hand delivered him. He's semi-ferrel. Only myself , the kids and a few select people can touch him. He's never late for meals but doesn't like to come inside but for a brief few minutes. I decided since I can't sleep I'll go walking and look for him.Everyone on my street is elderly and hard of hearing, or younger with school kids, so I watched as lights slowly came on around me and started walking and calling him. He always comes when I call, but no Sonny. Iloved that cat as much as I can love a cat since I'm really a dog person. I thought Sonny'd be around for a long time. Charlie is the one I expected to go first since he's a stray. But Charlie is an overweight lazy cat who only leaves the yard to lay in the street (aaaarrrrgggghhh!!!) just past the driveway. Mystic roams but stays close she's young yet tho. All my pets are spayed or neutered except Junkie the Poodle and Leo the puppy. They won't neuter Junkie because he's 10 and has what's called White Dog Shaker Syndrome. Its like epilepsy, but only affects white dogs. Mainly White minature, toy and teacup, poodles. Leo's getting neutered next month along with his last puppy shot and rabies vaccine. It's Crazy we spend our lives loving someone or some pet hard only to lose them. I've lost alot of pets because I bred German Shepherds foe years, They either got old or some complications took them away. You never get used to losing the ones you love. All I have in my life are my kids and pets and few friends. I'd love to become closer to my family, it'll take them all time to get used to letting me back in, but I'm patient. Sonny missing has me upset. I'm not crying like I will when one of the dogs passes, but my heart aches because I know I could've done better. Cats really shouldn't be outside. They get hurt too easily, don't learn boundaries like dogs do, and will chase almost anything that moves which gets them into trouble. Now I'm gonna worry about Charlie and Mystic more, I'll probably go overboard when I don't see them close to the porch. Enough of that now. I'm sleepy think I'll go nap after I take the dogs out. LIVE, LAUGH, LOVE TTYL B

I'M ONLINE!!!!!!

Ok after an extremely long wait(3 years) I'm back online! I've been playing all day so, I'm tired. I'll post when I get up. It's just great to be able to get on at home. Well, TTYL B

Single again

Well, I'm single now. My divorce was finalized yesterday. It was totally weird. I haven't seen Bruce in 3 years yet When I walked in the courthouse there he was at the top of the stairs wearing the same red polo I was! It was like a punch in the face. I had all these emotions come flooding back- but first and formost I was hurt.I could tell he's clean and off the meth and all I could Think was why couldn't he quit for me? I miss him alot. It really messes with me being able to date again I always compare them to Bruce's good qualities and its tough.When it was good it was like a fairy tale. When things were bad it was a horror flick. I've grown and changed alot over these last 3 1/2 years. Its hard living alone on disability. I'm going to start a job soon with vocational rehab soon. Maybe it'll work out. I pray every day for strenghth. Some days are harder than others but I'll be all right. I gotta go for now my hot fudge sundae is melting. ttyl B

Ok, its been a while. I got a new Puppy. He's white labrador retriever siberian husky mix.He's beautiful. Solid white with blue eyes. He's really smart. had him a week now. He's 6 weeks old. He's just plain good. Deuce is sick. He has 73 tumors internally and externally. cancer. He's old but still healthy otherwise. We're gonna endure this together. He is my best friend. I've been thankful to live these last 10 years together. He's the best dog I've ever known. Well I'm crying now- so I gotta go.

Summer

The kids were here almost all summer. We had a blast we went on a couple trips, and played hard. They each had a week alone with me and I packed as much as i could into it all -well as much as I could without a car of my own. My friend Russ gave me his '89 BMW cause his son hit a telephone pole and it was too much to repair, so it sits in my driveway slowly getting repairs. Not much left now just body stuff mainly then I'll be tearing up the roads. Lee sr and the kids moved to Inman SC with has girlfriend cause she was pregnant. She lost a baby girl on August 20. SR said he isn't going to stay with her, but he is going to make sure Tara and Lee Jr finish driving school and get their Licenses and move back. The kids are tough and try to handle all the moving around with their heads up. They are doing well. They started school on different days this month- Dillon 8th on the 18th, Tara 9th on the 19th, and Lee Jr on the 20th. Weird ,huh. Well not much else except I got Mystic Spayed so no more Kittens!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Needless to say I got a laptop for my birthday. I haven't got internet yet so I use the local city wireless and Sonic's wireless. I can walk to Sonic if I have to. Well Gotta go- I'm done eating now. lol As always I love Y'all. B

Bill day. Got 'em paid. Blah blah, bills, blah blah bills....
Met David's mom today. His dad had a stress test done today, took 4 hours. I've met his dad before. His mom was nice. David, his mom and I went out to eat. Went to Seabreeze restaurant. Fish!!!!!!! I ate flounder! Yes folks- don't have a heart attack- I ate fish and liked it.lol. David and his mom had alaskan whitefish, I liked it too! No more families for my shrimp and I eat fish. My how tastes change as we grow up. I still hate oysters- there's no hope, Dad. I like shrimp scampi alot. I ate crab legs in Daytona. Crazy, huh?
I even like liver now.
The kittens are doing well, but I don't think they're all girls,2 might be boys after all. The White one is changing colors. They sure are small. Anyway, not much more to say for now ttyl. B

Today was pretty boring. The new meds Knock me out. I hate it. I got up at 8, had small breakfast,2 cups of coffee, and thought I wa good for the day. I sat down on the couch and next thing I knew David was Knocking on my door to take me to physical therapy at 1pm. we went to eat chinese, then to his house. I fell asleep again for 2 more hours lol. Been awake bout 3 hours and I'm ready for bed. Successfu day, huh. Oh well maybe tomorrow will be different. B

Quick catch up here...

Well here goes... This isn't great news. I have been seing a physical massge therapist for about 3 weeks. Last Thursday she found several swollen lymph nodes over my ribs on both sides. I saw my dr yesterday. I have had problems with lymphadenatis since '02, so I wasn't too concerned. She is sending me to a general surgeon on the 7th. She thinks I might have lymphoma. I hope not but I'm Worried. We'll find out then.
Better news here-I guess. My cat had 4 kittens yesterday. Her name is mystic. She's too young, but escaped while in heat and (excuse the expression) catted around now I have 7 cats in the house-ugh. I already have homes for them, but they'll still be there for 6 weeks. they are all girls, 1 white, 3 black, one has white socks and nose. She's a good mom tho. She'll be spayed as soon as they are weaned.
The kids are playing baseball and softball again this year. They just had tryouts. Dillon and Lee Jr. are on the same team in the senior league. Tara is in the girls softball senior league. I'm so proud. They are doing better than ever.
I've been seperated for 3 years 4 months from Bruce, and on my own for the first time ever. I love it. I have a cute little 2 bedroom cottage right now in Hendersonville, but might be taking over payments on friends home on Jeter mtn in 5 weeks for half the money. Its 3 bedroom 2 bath on 2 1/2 acres. I hope it works out.
I still have Deuce The german shepherd golden retriever mix, just turned 10. I still have the poodle Junkie- He'll be 10 in September. They are my best friends. I unfortunately lost my other shepherds because of my ex, but I handled it well.
I'm not sure what else to catch up on except I have new boyfriend of 2 1/2 weeks named David and He's great. He has 2 sons, Jaime 20, and Trent, 16. We have alot of fun, and my kids adore him. I guess thats all for now. ttyl. B

Wow! This is crazy, haven't been online in forever. This will be fun. I miss it a lot. My life is crazy and different, so I might as well share lol. For now I just want to post comments on my mom's sight. So... I'll be back