Single again

Well, I'm single now. My divorce was finalized yesterday. It was totally weird. I haven't seen Bruce in 3 years yet When I walked in the courthouse there he was at the top of the stairs wearing the same red polo I was! It was like a punch in the face. I had all these emotions come flooding back- but first and formost I was hurt.I could tell he's clean and off the meth and all I could Think was why couldn't he quit for me? I miss him alot. It really messes with me being able to date again I always compare them to Bruce's good qualities and its tough.When it was good it was like a fairy tale. When things were bad it was a horror flick. I've grown and changed alot over these last 3 1/2 years. Its hard living alone on disability. I'm going to start a job soon with vocational rehab soon. Maybe it'll work out. I pray every day for strenghth. Some days are harder than others but I'll be all right. I gotta go for now my hot fudge sundae is melting. ttyl B

Ok, its been a while. I got a new Puppy. He's white labrador retriever siberian husky mix.He's beautiful. Solid white with blue eyes. He's really smart. had him a week now. He's 6 weeks old. He's just plain good. Deuce is sick. He has 73 tumors internally and externally. cancer. He's old but still healthy otherwise. We're gonna endure this together. He is my best friend. I've been thankful to live these last 10 years together. He's the best dog I've ever known. Well I'm crying now- so I gotta go.